Thank You, Pablo Neruda for your mind.

If You Forget Me


I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Something Funny.

We spend our whole lives passing and meeting people. We look at people,but how often do we actually SEE somoene?
I recently met someone that I really enjoy talking to. He's a great freind. I've seen him before but I never actually SAW him until recently. How often does that happen? How often do we see people but not actually know who they are? It's almost idfficult for me to write about this and make my meaning obvious because sometimes the translation from my head to my quickly typing fingers doesn't come clearly. I don't even know what type of situation to compare it to.
I'm seeing this new friend for the first time and getting to know him. Before I just assumed that he was this person that people told me he was. I knew facts about him, like who is friends were and how he was always at the center of our church youth activites. I was content with those facts because I didn't ever give him a second thought. He was just another someone. Just another aquaintence.

Getting to know someone for the second time is another form of this subject. Recently, I've become friends again with someone that used to be my best friend. After a few months of awkward left over fights and harsh words, we stopped talking and communicating all together. It was just about a month ago that this person, let's call him Joseph, and I started talking again. Taking baby steps out of the awkward "I'm not sure if this is uncomfortable and I'm not sure that you want to talk to me" phase. Joseph and I somehow got past everything that happened and caught up on each other's lives. The reunited friendship felt like it was never damaged. We essentially are getting to know each other again because people can change in a time span of seven months, and change we did.

You're probably wondering how these two different situations compare to each other, how they tie in? Well,honestly, I wouldn't be able to tell you. All I can tell you is that they do. Somehow in this rattled,muddled brain of mine, it all makes sense and I wish that I was a better writer so that I could explain to you what I mean. I just keep thinking that along with "stopping to smell the roses", stop and SEE the people around you, because how often do we overlook someone that might make an impact in our life some day?

New Me.

I've kind of been reinvented recently. September 24,2010 up until November 26,2010 marked a really important time in my life. It may sound cheesy and immature,but I met a pretty special guy. We're definitely super close and he's my best friend but that'small we are...now. At first I was kind of upset about the whole "Just friends" thing, but now I'm totally okay with it. He's still my best friend.
This isn't the topic of my post. The topic is about the "New Me".
Liek I said: I've kind of been reinvented,if you will. After I quickly got over the boy situation, I got my braces off, I finally figured out how to wave my hair and keep it wavy(although I'm sure it's only thanks to the dry winter air)and I've found some cute new clothes. It sounds pretty shallow I know, but I feel a lot beter about myself because I feel more comfortable and happy with the way I look. It's fun to kinda of have a self make-over once in a while,with the help of my Orthodontist, of course(Thanks Doctor Taylor!).Here is just a sneak peak of the "New Me."

Design Therapy

So recently I've been pretty stressed about school and...life. I tried to find a way to relieve that stress, and of course music helped but I needed something to do with my hands, so I pulled out my pencils and paper, and just started to draw. Design actually. I haven't done it for a while, since I was thirteen actually.
So I started designing dresses and when my friends saw them, they all started asking for me to design their "Wedding Dresses". It's really fun and surprisingly calming.

This is my first dress:


This is my friend, Cammie's dress:


This is Maddie's First dress
:

Maddie's Second dress:


This is my "Red Carpet" Dress:


There's also my prom dress,that will actually be my Junior Prom dress, and an "Easter" dres,but I'll have to upload those later.

So there you are:)
<3Elyse

New Start

I came to realize that I haven't updated in a long time. I guess I'm just so hooked to Facebook status, or Twitter updates that I seem to forget about this little web page that I have. I got really excited about figuring out how to add pictures.In the process I chose a picture that sadly turned out to be GIGANTIC and I cant seem to figure out how to fix it's size, so don't be alarmed when you see my head almost as big as the Chrysler Building (which my mom would laugh at). My blog also seems to be very...lop-sided, so that's also something to be fixed.But in any case, I'm enjoying finding different nifty little things to do with this handy blog.

My life update:
School is interesting,boring,fun,annoying,and at times exciting, but mostly difficult. I'm trying my best to keep my grades up but failing in my Advanced Chemistry and Algebra w/Trig classes. I guess two out of seven isn't that bad right? Wrong. I may not be in loads of trouble with my parents but I think that the stress that those classes bring to me are punishment enough. But I really do enjoy blowing things up in Chemistry...just kidding. We haven't blown anything up, just watched our teacher do it.On the upside, I'm really enjoying Madrigal choir and my Theatre Production class. We're working on our Christmas concert music in choir and our second class play called "Don't be Afraid of the Dark" in Theatre Production. I play the character of Gloria Parr, a lawyer. My friends say ta ht I'm destined for greatness...and a lot of money because in our first play, "Bamboozled!", I was Doctor Grazziano. Doctor and now Lawyer...hmmm? Is this a sign? I hope so! In my AP English class, my teacher really likes me. I really enjoy that class, except for the boring essays we have to write. We're also starting a school fundraiser for Heifer International. It's fun because I've gotten to help kick off this project and I'm enjoying seeing the school get excited about it.
Is there a guy in my life? Maybe... ;)
DRIVING! When I first got my permit in April, I would never drive, or if I did, I drove 15 miles under the speed limit :/ Yeah, I was pretty scared. But I seriously woke up one day in August and wanted to go drive and I was really good. I don't know what happened, but I woke up and had gotten over my fear of driving. Since I started driving so late after I got my permit, I haven't gotten my restricted licence yet. I was supposed to get it in September, but I still have about 20 driving hours that I have to get and it seems like it's taking FOREVER and a half.

Thanksgiing is tomorrow and my dad has been home since friday night and will be here all week. I don't remember the last time we had such a long time with him. We went and saw Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows last night and really enjoyed it. We're hoping to keep up with our Thanksgiving Family tradition and go see "Tangled" tomorrow.

I got a flu shot yesterday. I was pretty surprised that I didn't punch a hole in something first, although I did cry. It really didn't hurt at all, but I basically had a panic attack. I can't stand the sight of needles. It's pretty bad.
In another medical case: I get my braces off in three weeks! THREE WEEKS! I'm stoked. I can't wait to have my teeth back again, looking better than ever! December 15th is the day! It's going to be a great early Christmas present!

So, there's my latest blog I guess. I could write more, but I don't want anyone reaing this to fall asleep due to my boring stories. So there you are.

<3Elyse

*Next Blog will hopefully be about my designs and there will be pictures(if I can figure out how to post those).

Have a fabulous Thanksgiving holiday!

"A Journey of a Thousand miles,begins with One Step"

Yesterday in third hour, we talked about achieving our goals,and it really was a personal hit for me.

"The greater danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it,but that it is too low and we hit it." -Michelangelo

"The reason most people never reach their goals is that they dont define them,or ever seriously consider them as believble or achievable.Winners can tell you where they are going,what they plan to do along the way, and who will be sharing the adventure with them."-Dennis Watley

"When we are motivated by goals that have deep meaning,by dreams that need completion,by pure love that needs expressing,then we truly live life." -Greg Anderson

Your Dimensions of Greatness
No one can know the potential,
Of a life that is committed to win;
With courage- the challenge it faces,
To achieve hreat success in the end!

So,explore the Dimension of Greatness,
And believe that the world CAN be won;
By a mind that is fully committed,
KNOWING the task can be done!

Your world has no place for the skeptic,
No room for the DOUBTER to stand;
To weaken your firm resolution
That you CAN EXCEL in this land!

We must have VISION TO SEE our potential,
And FAITH TO BELIEVE that we can;
Then COURAGE TO ACT with conviction,
To become what GOD MEANT us to be!

So,possess the strength and the courage,
To conquer WHATEVER you choose;
It's the person WHO NEVER GETS STARTED,
That is destined FORVER to lose!

~Author Unknown~




"Begin with the end in mind." Stephen Covey

BCPE

About mid-November,there were auditions for the school Christmas play, "The Best Christmas Pageant Ever". I thought "Eh it wont be that fun,but I'll audition". So come audition day I headed to auditions,got a script,and went into the hall with two other girls to read through the alternate opening scene. When we went in,we read through the scene and they let us go. That was the whole audition,so i was walking down the hall and someone came running up behind me and said that the student directors wanted me back so i could read through a few more scenes! If you know me, then you would know that I was EXCITED! So I went back and they had me read through a different scene as a different character(the mother), then another scene as the Mother. So they told me that they thought I could be a more mature character,and they said that I did really well. They said that the cast list was going to be up by the end of the week! I knew from previous auditions not to get too excited or set your heart on getting cast,so I didn't. But when I saw the cast list I scored the part of Maxine. I was so extremely excited!Maxine is one of the three main church girls. Her Best Friends are Beth and Alice.

When practices started I knew a lot of the cast members but I wasn't really close to them at all. But we all automatically clicked after a few days. It felt like we had known each other for so much longer than just a week. After the first week or two of rehearsals,we started dress rehearsals for the next two weeks.We only did two shows,but they were both really good. The opening night,we went to Hometown Pizza after for dinner, and the last night we had a CRAZY cast party.

During the month that we had been rehearsing,there were some really strong friendships that were made. One of my best friends, Jonathan, was someone that was part of the cast. It was one of the best months of my life. I feel so comfortable on stage and I loved being part of something that I love. I felt so comfortable around everyone in the cast. I Miss it so much! It was one of the most amazing things I've ever done. I miss it,but I'm gonna keep auditioning and hopefully get a part in the spring musical!